Come to think of it. I am just too fucking naïve. Too self-indulgent. Too selfish. 
Too impatient. I've driven you to the corner. I've pushed you off the cliff.

The first time we talked.I treated you like a friend. Never was I convinced. That you'd like me.
Denying everything. Promise myself not to fall in love. Promise myself not to fall again. 
 

You taught me how to love. You taught me how to change. You taught me how to be happy and not take everything seriously. I listened to you. I talked to you. I obeyed you. I started to like you.
Your sweet words constantly whirled in my mind. Your charming attitude made me insane. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. Cos I am thinking about you every second of my day.
Suddenly you lit up my hopes. You asked me out. You came all the way across the distance, just to see me. I felt for you the minute I saw you there, sitting on the bench looking away. Our eyes met. My heart was melt. From that moment I thought you're the one. We had a great time. Not much talking but it all felt too good to be true. Time past. Fast. The minute you departed, my heart started to cry. I wished that day would never end. I wish that you're always there.
It's been a while since that day. You brought more depression to me than anyone else did. No matter how hard I try. I still love you. I couldn't change my mind. All the sweet moments we had shared, all the time I thought you'd care. When it turned to dust, nothing can compare.
Maybe I've pushed too hard. Maybe I've scared you off. Either way. I regret. I hate the way I love you so much. I hate the way I can't let you go. I've lost my self-confidence. I've lost my mind. Most of all. I've lost my heart. I couldn't believe you are the one to break my heart. I couldn't believe you're the one to hurt me. So much have past. Thought I'll forget, sad but true, I'm still in love with you.
All the games you played. Confuse myself. Abuse myself. Trying my hardest to keep you to myself. Maybe I should've stopped at the first time. I'm just the fool to fall for you. I lie to myself. I could still change you. Try to convince myself. One day you love me back. I should've known. It'd never work, would it? It'd never work.

SLAVE ¦¦¦¦ Lived too long they've come to take me to a place where I can die. Lost my soul lost my confidence in me. Can't be something but I'll try. Lived too long now waiting to just drown. In my self-pity I keep falling down. Want to be your soldier. Want to be your slave. Have no pride in myself. That's how I behave. The only book that I own's called "How to lose". Pick a chapter I know them all just choose. Live too long now waiting to find, a place where I can die. Lost my sould, my confidence in me. Can't be something but I'll try. I want to be your soldier. Want to be your slave. Have no pride in myself.

I can never understand. Nothing you do makes sense. If you can open up. If you can let me know. I'll turn away and never talk to you again. You left me in my tears. Turned your back on me. You said you never care. You said you never want to love somebody. You selfish motherfucker. You made me fall for you. I couldn't help but get angry. I couldn't help but cry. Cos I'm so in love with you. When you've broken my heart that time.
Maybe I'm too soft-hearted. Maybe I'm too naïve. Maybe love was the thing holding me back from all. Maybe I'm just the thing to break my own fall.